Improbable Lights

that’s impossible, she said,
brushing all my joy aside.
that’s a strong word, i replied,
feeling wantonly denied,
let’s say improbable instead

life is full of things we don’t expect
i’ve seen hidden things revealed
you’d say it must have been a dream
i say it’s real but that’s no matter
real, unreal, deserve respect

reality is surface only
solid as hard rock it’s true
it grips our souls in solid matter
with all that’s purely possible
even rocks wear away
that’s more than probable, I’d say

i am looking in between
deep into a fluid river
where the shadows dance and play
it’s in the depths of things you’ll see them
it’s in the magic of the light
where the wind turns by the stream
like clearings glimpsed within a forest
there is a path that slips between
and there i saw with eyes askance
all those things unreal, unseen

Morning ~ a rubaiyat

impatient for your arms again i rise
to sit and watch your secret sleeping eyes
what dream is this that keeps you lingering there
with smiling parted lips and tender sighs

what joy in sleep so fills your captured heart
while i wait here alone, to watch apart
and gaze upon your much loved gentle face
more lovely than a work of perfect art

i wander in the garden late at night
to gather perfumed roses, pink and white,
while I my patient lovers vigil keep
to bring your morning wonder and delight

the dark, the stars, the moon are gone away
across your sleepy pillow sunbeams play
in this new world refreshed, renewed, be mine
awaken to another golden day

On the Green Hill

She comes to me after midnight,

whispering soft in my ear

her face full of moonlight,

her dress is pale and blue

starlight glints in the weave.

I almost understand her.

I hear her whispered words

in a language i once knew,

or thought I knew.

She tries to tell me stories,

lost long ago in sleep,

stories lost in a dream somewhere

inscribed on a unicorns horn

and the print of a satyrs hoof.

I gather a word here and there.

I store them away with care

but all the next day

I long for her

and I cant untangle the words.

My heart is bewitched, enthralled.

I long for the night to come again,

the night on the hill in the wood.

Fading Dream (an aubade)

bird song at the break of day

fails to end my sleeping journey

i resist the dawn to be with you

i saw you turning in a doorway

gesturing for me to stay

i feel you resting here beside me

in this other realm, we touch

my curtains shut away the sun

but time makes slaves of us all

i must face this day begun

each morning i must leave my dream

you whisper as i fade away

 

Travel Tales – # 1

Having seen a phrase about a mountain path beset with tigers I recalled a dream I had in which my dream horse (a frequent visitor) was unusually allowing me to guide and choose our path (usually I just go where I am taken) and I began to ascend a very steep mountain track and my horse began to struggle but yet still obeyed me until I felt ashamed of the damage I was doing to the horse so I stopped and apologised. My horse immediately forgave me and turned to pastures and galloped to the sea. I took this dream to mean that if we ‘’go with the flow’’, that is Awen, we learn far more than by forcing our own view and decisions upon our life and the way – the sea is not high like a mountain (where perhaps I had foolishly wanted to ‘dominate the peak and look down on all’) but it is a symbol at the very least of the source of life and it ‘’goes with the flow’’, and the moon.

I have also written a poem about a year ago about encountering a dragon in a steep place and the Tower (interspersed with some comments from ordinary daily life when when my dreaming is not looked upon favourably by others).  All I longed for was peace by the river (with my muse) in the realm of imagination and the natural flow of the path. Obstacles can be overcome with some determination but most of all with imagination.

 

Escape from the Tower

 

Climbing the mountain, trying to reach the tower

Confronted by a dragon, endlessly asking me riddles,

While a great storm gathers all about us

Thunderbolts roar, lightning reflects on my shield

 

(“What do you do in that room all the time?

What are you thinking about?’’

I stop and get the food

And gather the rubbish that needs to go out)

 

I am losing my footing on the slippery rocks.

The dragon flashes his eyes with desire

I have to succeed, cannot be overpowered,

I call on the rain to quench his fire

 

(“Always off in imagination,

What’s wrong with you?

You spend hours on that

And it’s not even true’’)

 

I answer the final riddle, the dragon steps aside.

My way no longer barred, I struggle on up the mountain.

The tower reaches up to the clouds

Eagles circle above, come to help me in my troubles

 

(“I know you have talent?

Why don’t you use it?’’

“I work too!’’ i say

“You could work more!’’ says she)

 

The eagle carries me up to the princess, we hover.

She reaches out to me. I swing her onto the eagles back.

My arm circles her waist, her hair flies in my face.

She leans back on me in relief.

 

(“You always were some other place,

Even as a child. No different now than ever.

Why can’t you just be normal,

And stay in reality?’’)

 

We circle together above the now sunlit valleys

Looking down from above, we avoid all the cities and castles

And land in a summer meadow by a singing stream

She adorns herself with flowers, I dream

Fingertips

Where was it, who was I and when?

A dream, almost remembered on waking

But gone, almost, just out of reach,

There at the back of my minds eye

Imprinted, unfocused yet real.

Was it long, or in passing, brief,

When was it our fingertips touched?

Just beyond reach is a thought of you,

A word on the tip of my tongue,

A perfume caught, a breeze recalled,

A scent I know but can’t name.

If I don’t think about it, I’ll know.

Now it is, what it was, what it is.

I like it so.

What is

The names of the paths are these;

‘What was and is gone’,

‘What may or may not be’,

‘That which should have been, but isn’t’

Or ‘should not be’ and ‘I wish’

 

I have travelled them all in the past

Now I travel the path of ‘what is’

That is the path that runs straight ahead

Step by step, I follow,

Whether I run or walk

Or sit on the verge and dream

It leads only to that which will be.

 

The Fiddler

twinkling stars above

pierce through evening mists

to shine on the fiddlers strings

this is a night of trysts

 

flowing with the harp strings, strummed water

the autumn leaves swim about like goldfish

awaiting winters frozen fingers, sore with playing

 

seeking, hunting, yearning, he turns to the lament

an autumn leaf falling, aimless, from the tree

brown scented, old wood, soaked in years of wishing

 

he lives to travel, moving, burning,

desiring, to be somewhere other than here

the tune plays on, long after he is gone

 

his music filled me up

gladly golden, red and green,

imbued in his sweet dream

remembered in the song

 

remembered in the song

 

Nanswhyden

The white gate stands, closed,

at the top of the grey winding road.

The broad green slopes of the pasture

lead down to the shining lake,

a silvered mirror to sunlight.

 

At first dawn the vale fills with mist.

A line of treetops, drawn on white,

with a tender brush, nothing more.

All is hidden. Nothing exists here now.

It waits to be born with the sun.

 

An ancient woodland sits in shadow,

deep at the edge of the valley,

where the cry of the circling kestrel

splits the air. He calls to his mate aloft.

The sound defines the distance.

 

On a hot summer day

the grey road burns and shimmers,

running past old stone walls and banks of wild flowers,

wilting, in afternoon heat.

My feet on the road raise fine dust.

 

Woven into these hills the grey road runs down

past ruined ivy clothed archways.

They stand alone in a field,

all that remains of a mansion,

a home, and people long gone.

 

Beyond, is the farmhouse,

built of timber and granite.

It sits as if rooted in earth

nested into a curve,

strong enough to withstand any storm.

 

In the farmyard the mud is baked hard.

The old sheep dog twitches one ear as I pass.

He knows me too well to rise. He is tired.

His thick coated son wags his tail at me.

He is always on guard.

 

I walk on past my own cottage door

into a grove of birch saplings,

mingled with older trees, cedar and oak.

In spring this place is flooded with vibrant blue,

the sharp, pungent scent of bluebells fills the air.

 

In this magical wood, at the far end,

I have often glimpsed the fair folk.

They don’t chase me away. I leave them in peace.

This is a place where two worlds cross.

The door is held open, and welcome.

 

Now I come to rest in the shade

on this burning bright summer day.

I lean my back against the moss clad old oak

and dream the rest of the day away,

long past this, and every other, evening.

 

The old standing stone, at the heart of the valley,

remains always cool to the touch.

At night when the stars are out, in moonlight,

the stone is encircled, embraced by a perfect bowl

of such beauty, it takes away my breath.

On the Green Hill

she comes to me after midnight,
whispering soft in my ear
her face full of moonlight,
her dress pale blue
starlight glints in the weave
i almost understand her whispered words

in a language i once knew
she tries to tell me stories,
lost long ago in sleep,
stories i lost in a dream,
stories inscribed on a unicorns horn
and the print of a satyrs hoof

i gather a word here and there
i store them away with care
but all the next day i long for her
my heart is bewitched, enthralled
I long for the night on the hill in the wood