Flatlining

death changes nothing
death changes everything

the day was calm
and then the sudden shock
a hell of grief
an open wound

don’t bleed!

silenced

sealed

before the sad amen

death changed nothing
death changed everything

the days went on
while i took foolish risks
and tested out my fate
i sought out thrills
i put myself in danger
to feel some deep emotion
as consolation
and a balm

it heals
but still reveals,
in every day that followed,
that everything was flat lined
neutralised
suppressed
by unshed tears

death changed nothing
death changed everything

my heart is tarnished
but the world goes on the same

i know what you would say
if you were here today

i see it now

perhaps it’s not too late

death changes nothing
death changed everything

Nervous

 

sitting alone here, in my room, lost in my thoughts,

sifting ideas, drifting in dreams

 

but stop!

 

was that a sound I heard outside?

is something sneaking about in the night?

i hear my heart beating loud in my ears

ba-boom ba-boom ba-boom ba-boom

 

i had a nightmare about this once

people were climbing the garden wall

they were hooded, and secret and carried long knives

i barred up my windows and locked up my doors

i fought then with fury

i beat them off

ba-ba-boom ba-ba-boom ba-ba-boom ba-ba-boom

 

waiting, listening the time passes slowly,

my ears are alive to the sounds of the night

i turn off the light and look from the window

a thief in the darkness  rummages about

then delight

i see there’s no danger

it’s only a stranger astray in these parts

a beautiful, nervously watchful

red fox