your wish
for far more
made all we had
less
and now
in the end
there is nothing
your wish
for far more
made all we had
less
and now
in the end
there is nothing
i see the streets from big wide windows
i wouldn’t cage a wild bird
i see the magpies perched
on nearby roofs and chimney tops
i haven’t left the house for months
except for weekly hurried visits
to the bank and back again
to pay the hired help who come
for one lone hour a week and leave
i look up maps of nearby woods
woods to which i cannot go
i have started planting trees
within the sheltered garden walls
i see the rolling hills so distant
the snow will come to cover all
the winter nights are drawing in
To begin……………
Let me tell you a bit about George Ingham.
George was a fine example indeed of the well-established Norman gentry who have been the masters of all in Britain since the time of William the Conqueror.
He lived in a beautiful mansion, of old, honey-coloured, weathered stone in a gentle hollow within the heart of the surrounding hills. It looked very romantic with its false crenelated walls and towers and deep sunk mullion windows with huge stone lintels, a little over grown with ivy.
All was surrounded by formal gardens, tended by a dozen or so gardeners. There was a small lake, where the obligatory swans glided, and an old mossy fountain below his bedroom window that lulled him to sleep at night. Georges’ window looked out over the acres of rolling hills and woodlands he would one day inherit.
George was the son of a wealthy Squire in the Cotswolds and the heir to his families’ large fortune. He had had all the usual education, suitable to his status, but the result was that he could only speak some Latin and all the rest had gone in one ear and out of the other.
Nonetheless he cut quite a dash on the hunting field and was excellent at all gentlemanly sports and this was the pinnacle of his education.
He was, in fact, similar to all his peers at that time, except that he used to read in his fathers library sometimes and dabbled in magic, or thought he did.
To be fair, it was not entirely his own fault that he knew almost nothing of real magic, as the books in his ancestors library were less well informed on the subject of magic and local lore than was his old nurse. Her family had lived far longer in these parts than his had but, to him, she was a simple country woman and he had forgotten her stories. It might have served his life better if he had remembered them.
He had read a little of a local legend about a magic hare that could grant three wishes. One could wonder what such a wealthy young man might wish for, but, distracted by the dinner gong, he had not read it all, nor considered his three desired wishes.
He had read just enough in the library to think himself wiser than his fellows but not enough to make him other than completely ignorant.
Perhaps the picture I have painted of George is a little unfair and I wouldn’t want you to be unsympathetic toward him. It wasn’t his fault that he was born into this idle and ignorant way of life and, besides that, he was good-humoured and handsome and generally kind to his horses and hounds and much-loved by the ladies of the area.
But enough about Georges attributes. We know him well enough now as he mounts his fine black horse to run with the fox hunt one fine early morning in autumn.
He presented a very fine figure indeed in his leather doublet, embroidered britches, silk shirt and scarlet jacket, as his horse stamped and pranced, impatient for the gallop, while he tossed back the stirrup cup. George was as eager for the chase as was his horse.
The hunt set off at a brisk trot down the gravelled path and out through the arched gateway into the open parklands, where they began a canter downhill, jumping fences, making a wonderful sight to the eye for those who were watching.
Then they paused and waited while the hounds whirled about seeking a scent. It was not long before they found one. The horn was sounded and they all swept on in a galloping flood after the hounds and the fox.
Before they had gone very far a hare, startled from the long grass, suddenly shot across George’s path and headed towards the woods at the side of the valley. With his head full of half formed facts George left the hunt and took off after it alone.
The hare ran ahead, plashing the dew up behind it, diamonds in sunshine, as it zig zagged back and forth ahead of him, its heart pounding. It gained the edge of the wood just ahead of George who went to follow, but, his horse reared and refused to enter.
George dismounted and tried to soothe the horse but it continued to rear, its hooves coming close to his head. He lost his grip on the rein and the horse bolted.
George was alone on the edge of the wood, with no horse and no sign of the hare. He stood there cursing that damn hare and the inclination that had made him follow it.
Then he heard something that sounded like fountains and gentle music from inside the wood. He had never entered there before but fountains and music seemed incongruous. He felt compelled to explore and find out.
George hadn’t gone very far when he heard another sound further away, as if blown on a breeze …….click click, click click.
He stopped to listen but it stopped when he stopped and he only heard fountains and music. He walked on, halting each time he heard it again, a hollow click click, click click, click click ……. and now the music had stopped. He stood turning about confused. The wood seemed to have darkened. No sunlight pierced the canopy overhead and the branches seemed to bend closer.
He felt a slight shiver run down his spine and, turning again, he caught a glimpse of something out of the corner of his eye. Or thought he did. He told himself he was imagining things. He peered through the trees. It must have been only a shadow, a trick of the light.
He decided to turn back.
When he looked behind him he couldn’t see the path. Brambles and nettles huddled up close and the thorns had already caught at his clothes. He pulled himself free and saw a wide, open, uphill path to his left. He followed it up hill and down, winding back on itself while the trees grew ever closer. Soon he was ducking under branches and stumbling over ancient gnarled roots. The twigs caught at his hair. All the time it was getting darker, until he could hardly see ahead
But there were lights. Bright cluster of sparkling lights of all colours far off between the trees and he heard whispers all around him.
”Look at his jacket. Its rags” they whispered.
”He is not a fine fellow now is he. Bring him this way.”
….and then soft, ringing laughter that tinkled like silver bells on a summer breeze.
Each time he stopped to get his breath back he heard it again – sinister – click click, … click click. It jangled his nerves and set his teeth on edge.
Click click, click, not metal, not wood, click
George looked around and again thought he saw a tall figure in grey. It was a woman. He thought she reached her hand out toward him but then she was gone. His imagination was fevered.
George was in panic. He waded through mud and lost his boots to escape sharp thorns. He fell on his knees at last. He prayed. He begged. He threw out wild promises.
Suddenly the trees drew back and a wide path opened before him and the sound of the fountain returned. He stood up eagerly and ran down the path, followed by more laughing merriment.
He heard a voice whisper ”Hush” and all was still.
George found himself in a hollow. There was a large dried up fountain, its base full of rotting leaves. He walked to the fountain and sat down on its rim, dreading the thought of leaving this clearing.
He heard a rustle and closer now came the sound ………click click, click click. The click had an almost musical quality, soft yet clear.
George began to feel strangely drowsy. The leaves round the fountain began to swirl around him. He reached out his hand to brush them aside as they rose and touched his face.
The leaves smothered him, dragging him to the ground. George clung to the earth trying to escape. More and more leaves came. He clawed at the ground. The earth opened up before him.
Out of the ground came a blue-black moving carpet, a gleaming swarm. Thousand upon thousand of determined tiny beetles scuttled like one creature all over George while he thrashed about in terror. They filled his mouth, his nose and his ears. George could not scream or breathe or hear.
Silently they consumed what remained of Georges clothes. They stripped him right down to the bare white bone and then were gone in the wink of an eye.
The lady in grey stepped into the clearing and bent down to study the bones. She studied one bone at a time, trailing her finger along the thigh bone, lifting a finger to flex it, stroking the rib under the place where the heart had been. She cupped George’s skull in her hand, looked long and deep into the empty eye sockets and smiled.
Tiny lights, little figures like moth with fluttering wings gathered around brushing against the bones as the lady lifted the skeleton gently into her arms and carried it out to the far edge of the wood.
Click click. Click click.
Many bones were carefully arranged in the tree branches there; they clicked and turned in the wind. By dawn George was hanging there too in pieces, adding his own special note to the bone chimes.
Click click. Click click. Clunk. Click click.
In the morning the hare, running by, paused and looked up at George a moment. He wiggled his nose and sniffed the air and looked to the edge of the wood where a lady stood in a long grey gown scattered with sparkling cobwebs and a silver circlet in her hair bound round with ivy. Her green slanted eyes shone with delight and her hair hung to her waist in thick wild tangled ropes. She stood resting with one hand on a tree trunk, watching the bones sway in the wind. She raised the other in tender greeting and blessing to the hare who turned and loped away.
The lady spread her gossamer wings and glided up and away into the treetops.
photo by Richard Steel
twists and turns
soft breezes and storms
sweet reunions
misunderstandings
now i must fly
but i wish you safe landings
first there’s love
then there’s laughter
then more problems come after
the day has been long
all my words have been wrong
maybe you thought i was stronger
have your own way
have the last say
i wont ask you to stay
hitting the start button
logging off sweetheart
system shutting down
eight years old
i stood and stared at the floor,
a mosaic pattern
of intertwined flowers,
the pattern always there,
leaning my back against the cold wall
as mirror, clock and chair
and box after box
went out of the open door
where laughter had echoed before
i heard the wind sigh in the rafters
and the creak of the wood on the stair
there was nothing but empty rooms
the flowers drooped their heads in the garden
as i did, in despair, in the hallway
at a death that had come to soon
i saw no adventure ahead
nothing remained
nothing bloomed
after the gardener was dead
Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone;
For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air;
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.
Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go;
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all;
There are none to decline your nectar’d wine,
But alone you must drink life’s gall.
Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a large and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.
I am not posting much poetry just for the moment as i am working on third book of trilogy (slowly) and also writing a short tale for Halloween (which I will post here later)
So the muse has eyes elsewhere and i don’t want to make her too dizzy :) But I never know what she will turn up with next anyway.
The magpie perches in a tree
His fellow flies across my view
Static sorrow
Passing joy
where the river flows I may never know
but i remember the spring in the mountains
where it falls from great heights
and runs clear and bright
tumbling in glistening fountains
and wends its way down
replenishing wells
filling the thirsty cup
inspiration of dreams
it’s the source of all life
my mind flows away on its ripples
i follow its flow
down from the source
to its greener pastures
.
without it there’s drought
the dryness of earth comes to nothing