Beach Fire

all week we gathered driftwood
following the storm
and dragged it to the yard
to dry out in the sun

i watched you racing children
jumping rock to rock
always sure-footed
you never made a slip

pied piper running,
Cheshire cat grin
always on the tide line
when the tide is coming in

the tides come in
the tides go out
sunset, moonlight, dawns
each day the wood is drying

we built the fire together
just beyond the waves
carefully constructed
encouraging the flame

we threw more wood on
as the light began to fall
we sat and watched the sun go down
a blazing golden ball

passing strangers watching
stood on the path above
they thronged like curious moths
you called them to the fire

they ask do we live here
they say how fortunate we are
you smiled and wandered off
always to the tide line

i watched you from afar
the waves rolled in
the waves rolled out
beneath the evening star

In Luxulyan Wood

the disused viaduct spanned the valley
a leap of arches, stone piled up on stone,
where old channelled streams, cut into cold clay,
flowed away from the hazed heat of the day

i followed to the ancient, cool damp wood,
no longer frequented, my secret place
i was lost in thoughts and wandering daydreams
wrapped in deep silence, woven with bird-song

surrounded by scents, the creaking of trees
the soft bubbling sounds of the nearby streams
a rustle of leaves on a sudden breeze
that hushed and sighed with the fall of the wind

leaving deep shade for dazzling sunlight
i entered the clearing, briefly stood, blind
as my sight cleared, he was suddenly there
he in the east, i in the west, both transfixed

suspended in time, an unbroken gaze,
we stood in communion across space
the race of my heart the only sound
i slowly knelt to the ground without thought

he stood in a sunbeams magical glow
a fox, the like of which i never saw,
tall, strong, gleaming in deep red coat, he shone
the King of the woodland for evermore

kneeling before him quietly, i smiled,
making my respect and intention clear
our eyes held, i his bondsman and loyal kin,
in a place that stretched through air, almost near

a moment of true beauty kept me there
when, turning quickly, he vanished away
leaving me, standing in awe and pure joy
a vision of gold, held still in my heart

The Celtic Knot

a tenuous thread blown on a breeze
woven into a net, to save us
you pull on the thread, i feel it,
a bowline that twitches under my rib

sometimes that pull can hurt me
then i know that you’re feeling pain
wrapping the thread round my fingers
to bring you back closer again

the connection between us all is frail
we can twist it, strain it, break it,
or twine it, thread it, weave it,
a beautiful knot that is strong

*****

The bowline is an ancient and simple knot used to form a fixed loop at the end of a rope. It has the virtues of being both easy to tie and untie and it is easy to untie after being subjected to a heavy load. But the bowline knots name has an earlier meaning, dating to the age of sail. On a square-rigged ship, a bowline is a rope that holds the edge of a square sail towards the bow of the ship and into the wind, preventing it from being taken aback. A ship is said to be on a “taut bowline” when these lines are made as taut as possible in order to sail close-hauled to the wind.

The Queen of the Greenwood (a Corona)

i sit by the fire in the woodland
all is peace, gentle, quiet, dear,
yet my heart rises to my throat
rises like a spring, a songbird
wings beating, bursting
the well is deep, the moment fleeting
my pulse like water singing
drumming, humming
all fades away on the breeze
even as its golden light glows
shining out in the darkness
known, yet unknown.

home is her, and now.
it comes, it goes, the rose

it comes, it goes, the rose
the wild rose of the woodland
i run, trying to reach it
eagerness grasps only thorns
no perfume, no tender pink heart
better admired where it grows
soft petals shine out in the dark
dark trees loom all around
lost or found it blooms there
where is she in all i seek
she who holds the rose
why does she always leave

turning always to look back at me
she comes, she goes, holding the rose

she comes, she goes, holding the rose
i saw her up on the green hill
weaving in and out of the dance
i bow to her and take her hand
spin her, never win her
that wild, unruly, so gentle glance
as she turns and runs away
always looking back at me
always a footfall further
she haunts me still, never stays
she of the hill and the greenwood
where the paths all lead inward

deeper and ever deeper
into the wood i travel, willingly

into the wood i travel, willingly
this forest so wide and vast
these paths turn on fortunes wheel
darkness and light
all things future, all things past
shadows and clearings
silence and voices
a harp song on the wind
flute and owl hoot
the flash of a birds wing
in the night
i follow the ravens flight

i follow the Raven to the Tower
the gate is locked and barred

the gate is locked and barred
all is empty here
a hollow echo from before
i will not venture in
i stand and feel no fear
the Tower crumbles all to dust
i lay down my ancient sword
my armour turns to rust
my horse is faithful still
i trust to him and the Raven
i will follow his path
it is my own at last

all travellers have a quest
we ride on, finding the way

we ride on to once upon a time
over the hills and far away
where all paths twist back on themselves
always to the greenwood
the distant rainbows end
the treasure at its heart
the place where the rose unfolds
i dream amongst the trees
unafraid of any foe
guarded by a wall of thorns
protected in her circling arms
where all my dreams come true

i will travel on with her
wherever she may go

wherever she goes i will go
i follow in the dance
my pulse like water singing
she of the hill and the greenwood
queen of the shadows and clearings
my armour gleams again
i will be her hero
until my breath gives out
guarded by twisted paths
we rest in peace, with the rose
over the hills and far away
where time will never end

*******

 

a Corona is a series of sonnets strung together by the repetition of a line

Shadowed

in springtime we wandered into the wood
walking through carpets of bluebells
their deep throated scent filled the air
we spoke of golden dreams, hopes shared,
tenderness, beauty, love

the air seemed to change, birds silenced,
a shift in the wind carried a chill
leaves rustled, foretelling a storm,
we drew closer together, light faded,
the wood grew still, night fell

owls hooted, trees shivered
off in the distance a twig snapped
shadows shifted, moving closer
limbs crashed down in the wood
we sought the forgotten way out

in a world full of shadows and light
lighting fires, frightened of witches,
huddled like Hansel and Gretel
holding on to each other tight
hoping to find the trail

cursed from the start
curses piling upon us
doomed by darkness and gloom
demons and traps closing in
too fast for any escape

in a world full of shadows and light
sunlight flashed through the trees as we ran
black bars pierced by illumination, too brief
we couldn’t see where we were going
how could we find our way?

finally we found a door, too narrow,
i went through it alone
‘Go!’ you said, ‘I’ll be here.’
but you became lost in there
while i wandered on in the world

the paths never took me back
it was all so long ago
i forgot
how will i ever find you now?
i have no key for that door

city profile feather

i walk through Hyde Park

as dawn rises to morning

my head still full of music, trance dance,

spins in the freshness of early risen light

i head for the river, embankment, bridges

passing a cafe window i catch her glance

a smile, she turns away to her coffee

the image of her profile engraved on my retina

i walk on and never forget her

such are the tricks of chance and no chance

i watch the arc of a pigeons flight

a feather drops at my feet

a second gift from this city

the only gift i can touch

 

My Candle Burns

i take a flame, my

blessing candle

shines and burns.

i will light another at

the end, to bless us both,

for nothing truly ends

 

whatever comes of it

i shall always have the will

to keep it kindled, not

a flame guttering at the last,

it will always show the

way through even darkest night

 

this is my solemn vow to you, but

though it be hard to keep, ah

it is worth long vigil. my

valour vanquished foes,

the battle always won, and

when the night is over, oh

such victory is mine, my

foes become my friends

 

and here’s the path it shows, it

bathes us all in love, gives

my life a blessing spell, a

pool of bliss so lovely,

a glory, full of light!

 

*****

 

if you read the last word of each of my lines you will see a poem by Edna St Vincent Millay –

 

My candle burns at both ends;

It will not last the night;

But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends—

It gives a lovely light!

 

The Ride

at the edge of a western wood we stood,

quiet horse, forest breeze, golden wheat

all was good, all was plenty,

spread out far and wide beneath us

 

he set his head

to the distant east

master of power

master of grace

 

the miles rolled away

under his feet

drums to his gallop

beats to his pace

 

ahead in the distance

minarets shone

gleams of the sun

reflected heat

 

he slowed in the fields of asphodel

a place of quiet and gentle shades

on the cedar scented summer air

he stopped to rest and gain his breath

 

I never found my purpose there

nor the reason why we came

I left him then, journeyed alone

still haven’t found my way back home

from the dangerous, thrilling, sudden ride

to the fields of the asphodels

The Love in the Harp

The sun was sinking when I approached the Inn where I had previously left my Harp in safe keeping, it being large to carry with me on my longer journeys. When I entered there was no-one there except the Inn Keeper who was seated by the fire. I had always trusted him. When he looked up and saw me he seemed very uneasy, constantly shifting his gaze from mine.

”Good evening to you Sir,” I said, ”You seem disturbed. Is something amiss? The Inn is strangely empty.”

”No, no,” he said, ”All is well. It’s just quiet tonight. Will you be wanting a meal and a bed for the night?”

I told him I would but had mainly come to collect my Harp. At that he looked uneasy again but stood up, and left the room saying, ”I will see that a chamber is prepared for you. Will you take your meal by the fire?”

I relaxed by the fire and in due course a meal was bought and, having eaten, I retired upstairs and lay on the bed relaxing. Some hours passed. I noted that the night was strangely quiet. There were none of the usual sounds to be heard in an Inn so close to a brook and a wood, as this one was.

It was then that I heard a Harp being played; a Harp that I felt sure was my own.

I got up and left my room, following the sound. The Inn was in darkness, the interior only slightly lit by shafts of moonlight which filtered through the small window panes. The Inn was quite large and I wandered along corridors from door to door following the sound of my harp. Increasing in volume the sound lead me from door to door but then, as I reached it, always grew distant again.

Feeling that someone was playing a game with me and one that I had not the patience or willingness to play I decided to return to my room and solve the mystery on the morrow.

As I approached the door to my room I heard my Harp louder again. The tune was very sad and dark and was one I had never heard before. It was strangely foreign to my ear. I entered my room.

Sitting by the now wide open I saw a woman playing my Harp. Her back was to me. Her hair, which reached to her waist, was dark as a moonless night and her gown of grey was bejewelled. I stood entranced, by both her and the wondrous music. I hoped she would turn as something in the music made me long to see her face.

I stepped towards her.

It was then that I noticed her hands on the strings.

They were wrinkled and ancient. I stood transfixed, watching them stroke the strings. She turned and looked up at me.

Her face was not only that of an old woman. Beauty can exist in age just as it can in youth. This face was hideous as if centuries of venom filled it.

Her eyes held mine for what seemed an age and I felt my energy draining from me. My head filled with terrible visions.

I saw her feed on dead bodies in graveyards, snarling and ripping off limbs. I saw her take a crying baby from its cot and swing it round her head, smashing its brains out on a wall. I saw her cause lovers to destroy each other. I saw her stand by laughing as a man, drunk and insane, took a knife and cut out his mothers’ eyes. I saw her chain a woman to a wall so that men could rape her and then, afterwards, kick her and spit in her face after as she lay sobbing on the floor, trying to cover herself.

I saw aeons pass, time flying backwards. She was there, present at the heart of every sorrow and act of anger in history. She deceived with beauty and promises of power or wealth and bought the good to their downfall. She crowed over poverty and starvation. She rejoiced in every despicable action.

Even the memory of some of these visions is too painful to relate. I could not bare such horror and fell to my knees in anguish. I tried to resist what I saw but could bring no kind of other visions to my mind against them.

She stood over me and spat out these words, ”Fool! You who believe in Love and Kindness have no resistance against me. I am evil and hatred and I will take what you love and you will follow me! You will meet your darkest fear!”

With that she spread dark wings and flew from the window, leaving me shaking. The Harp vanished. I knew she had taken it and I was struck with grief.

Now, you might think ‘Let the harp go, don’t follow her!’ But this was not just any harp. It is an ancient Elven harp, blessed by my ancestors, and belonged to my mother before me. It plays its own tunes that my fingers only follow and it brims with poetry. It was as if she had stolen my mother’s heart and dragged it to hell. I could never rest while this evil being had it.

I knew she had entered the wood so I followed. All was hushed and still but as I walked I felt eyes from behind every tree. As I turned to look I saw them briefly before they vanished.

After a time I became aware of a scuttling sound that sent shivers up my spine but I pressed on into what became denser and denser undergrowth that seemed to cling to my boots more and more with each step.

After a time I heard the harp in the distance. I followed the sound.

As the harp grew louder, and seemingly closer, the scuttling sound increased.

Being well aware of what my darkest fear is I was almost daunted as my imagination leapt ahead of me.

A little further on I saw a cave entrance and the song of the harp echoed within it. Approaching I saw that the entrance was beset with webs. Dimly, through them, I saw the Harp. It played alone. As expected the cobwebs stood between me and the Harp. I stood a while, trying to brace myself against what I knew was to come.

I had no weapon; only determination.

I started to push the webs aside. They broke easily at first but grew stronger as I was further in and spiders began to throng around me, getting in my clothes, my hair, my eyes. It was hard to continue as every fibre of my body warned me to flee.

I reached the heart of a huge web and all the spiders suddenly left me in peace. The woman then appeared and began to wave her arms as if casting a spell. The movement was that of a spider.

She transformed before my eyes. I was hypnotised with fear and loathing. This was a spider so huge I could see it’s fangs and the gaze of her eyes which, as before, were filled with evil intent.

She reached out her legs and dragged me towards her. I screamed. I felt her all over my skin as she stripped me.

I begged. She bared her fangs. I tried to think of beauty and peace and couldn’t. I tried to close my eyes but it made it worse, to feel her but not see her. She toyed with me, enjoying my horror and feeding on my fear.

I became a scream that would not stop.

There was no feeling of hope left in me. The time ran slow and I was oblivious to all but her. The pain and fear never abated for a moment. I only wished I might die.
I saw pleasure in her eyes for a moment as I called upon death to save me. She wanted my humiliation as well as my despair. Her jaws were full of drool. I almost wished she would drown me.

Vaguely, at the back of my mind, I heard the tune of the Harp changing. Each note seemed to respond to my pain and it began to soothe me.

Strands of the web began to snap but the Spider still clung to me fiercely. The music grew stronger. The Spider bound me and began to wave her legs above me as though warding the music off.

I heard my Mother sing. She sang of Love and Beauty, Birth and Starlight. Her voice sang in the strings. The Spider, cringing, slowly backed away and shrivelled and, becoming a woman again, she let out one long piercing cry and fled out of the cave.

The song faded, leaving me there bound on the ground. I started to try and free myself when the spiders began to gather about me again. I lay still and waited. I did not fear them any more. They swarmed over me and freed me. I laid there amongst them, admiring their grace, listening to the Love in the Harp.