after seven years
I still can’t believe
I wont ever see my father again

I still can’t believe
I wont see him again

this thought repeats and repeats
rolling circuits around in my brain
until it looses momentum
and comes to rest
like a roulette ball
in an unpredictable place

why am i even trying to imagine
I wont see him again
when all of my elders
as they grew older
told me we would

not one of us knows
until we go
I can think as I like
until then